started trying to write a letter to an ex (kelly) that lived with me for a while that ended badly... was thinking about the good times and wanted to hear how she was doing.

found out i'm blocked on every site i know how to write her on. kind of sad really.

i've always liked to end things with friendship if possible. spend so much time with someone and they just fall out of your life again. feeling lonely. i've moved since so all it could be would be friendship, but it's still sad. oh well.

life runs
then fades
some die
the rest of us live on
memories we have
of the person they were
the time spent
moments charished
others bent
wish to relive
or to say
i'm sorry
but no way
of relationships
one dead
one blocked
of real relationships thats really it
for recent years

sleep
where i should be
but memories lost
what's swimming in me

can't really rhyme now
thinking too much
new life
starting out again
back to where i grew
but know noone here yet again

so hate moving
so hate swimming
in this life of sin

seems alone all i ever am